Even though I have made huge progress on my debt repayments, I feel so blah...
Just checked my spending for May and it is so disappointing - I really went overboard. Spent $995 on:
Clothes - stupid when I can make them AND I bought a new sewing machine
Groceries - so many treats and although it has been nice it is such a waste and adds up so quickly
School Uniforms - DD really needed them but $250 is ridiculous
Take Out - $45 or more. I think there are some receipts that are missing.
Gas - geez this just gets more and more expensive
Medicines - still haven't sorted out medical insurance so I am paying cash for all our scripts.
Fetched DD from school/aftercare today and suddenly realised that winter has arrived with avengence and that she needed a warm jacket. So off to the mall 
. Fortunately though I had a return so we got a credit for $7 and the jacket was on special for $10 - so I only spent $3.
Also needed to fetch my monthly meds and get some new makeup (haven't bought makeup for at least a year) so $54 later, we left the mall.
I have now decided that's it!!! When we got home, I took all the money out of my wallet except for $10 and put away the Bank ATM cards (we don't have CC anymore - they were cut up last year).
I have also been so irritated - the stove/oven in the apartment we are renting hasn't been working properly so everything I have baked, either burned at the bottom or was raw on the inside. Think this hasn't helped my frame of mind, as I am used to cooking and baking in bulk and lately, we have had to cook everyday and cookies have been store bought.
This frugal way of life is definitely a mindset - I have found that when I am not doing EVERYTHING frugally, I get lazy in every other area.
Anyway, the electrician is coming to fix the thermostat tomorrow so hopefully this time tomorrow night, I will be back to baking and bulk cooking.
I managed a second "no-spend" day yesterday for May - but only because I was too lazy to go out and it was warmer inside.
We get paid on the 25 of the month in South Africa so I really need to get working on my budget and see how much debt we can pay.
My DB1 is still having a tough time so I am contributing to his rent (cannot live knowing that he might be living on the streets) which means another budget item of $120 but at least he is warm and safe.
Work wise - I just don't seem to be able to get going. The joys of being in sales - the highs are high and the lows are low. I sit down at my desk and just can't seem to get much done so at the end of the day although I have been "working" I have not done anything productive.
Sorry for the blahs - but I really needed to wade through and capture my thoughts.
Maybe I am just tired and need to stop being so tough on myself.
Hope you are all well 
I am so demotivated and disappointed ...
May 21st, 2007 at 06:46 pm
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Hang in there!
May 22nd, 2007 at 09:05 am 1179824723
Feeling better today after a good sleep...
May 22nd, 2007 at 12:17 pm 1179836242
My suggestion is to do some stuff for you (that doesn't cost a lot of money - bubble bath, read a good book, self pedicure) and nurture yourself. Because when you feel good about yourself, it is easier to make better choices.
May 22nd, 2007 at 04:17 pm 1179850623
I work in sales to- some days are for sowing and some for reaping
glad you feeling better and hope you keping warm
May 23rd, 2007 at 06:36 am 1179902192